Tuesday, April 16, 2013

5 Seconds

{the bombing} makes me feel scared and powerless
The above comment on a friend’s Facebook page earned me a lecture from my husband.

Fear is what they want you to feel.  You can’t be scared, if you are, they win.
While he’s right, I just can’t accept what he’s saying and move on.  Sometimes, despite myself, I am overwhelmed with fear. 

Today I make the choice – to allow the fear in, but only for 5 seconds.
Earlier in the day, my BIL had called me with his buddy’s bib number so I could track his progress.  He’d already finished, but did his family linger at the finish line?
My irrational fear of close quarters, of being in starting line corral and not being able to move should something happen?  That fear now seems justified.


What does this mean for future races?  Will this happen again?
What if this would have happened at Knoxville instead – where my husband, my cousin, his 2 year old son, and a friend were waiting at the finish line


Rest in God alone, my soul, for my hope comes from Him.
Psalm 62:5 HCSB


  1. There is nothing wrong with feeling fear. Don't let yourself try to STOP feeling fear.

    Just don't let fear stop you from living.

  2. I feel the fear too. And the thought that, "Wow, that could be me."

    Today, I'm not thinking of anything but running for the sake of running and our little lovely community.

    Big hug from me to you. I haven't told you in awhile but I love you. For the simple fact that you run. And as a fellow runner, you just get it. There are some things that are beyond words. And this is one of them.

  3. I'm not a runner but my daughter is so I get the fear, which I feel for her. I like that 5 second rule.
    PS - I miss Lost!

  4. I should put the whol "5 seconds" thing into practice! It's hard not to fear, but we certainly can't let fear control us. Like the verse you posted, we have to rest in God. Good words to end on!